Day 10 – I want

Day 10 – I want…
I want to rage,
And just say FUCK YOU for all the things that you’ve done, and simply expunge, and erase all memory of you from under my sun…
But then I would won-der, whatever happened to me? What pushed me to be, everything in men that I despise to see…

So what I will say,
Is THANK YOU for all the moments shared, the moments when you cared, and the moments that you were actually there…
And while I may despair, on whether or not you will be always here, despite my plight, I will do what’s right, and always say you were the best thing in my life…

I want to cry,
But being a man, they say, means burying  emotions away, and always doing what’s right, for wealth, health, family, sex, and life…
So it’s sad in a way, that I don’t know how to be sad this day, despite the fact, that I’m exploding from within, a supernova of heartbreak and sin…

I want to call,
Apologize, and simply make things right, but I don’t what to say. I’m usually a master of words, but around you, they never seem to come out the right way…
Truth be told sometimes I think I actually made things worse, cornered in a minefield of my own design, which only quadrupled the hurt…

I want to write,
But I know that you won’t respond, so I will keep my thumbs to myself. Words are meant to be said, but they should be heard as well…
And I can’t tell, if you ever hear me whenever I speak, but it’s the same message, whenever I breathe, or whenever my heart beats…
I want…you,
And for a time, I wanted you to want me to. But you don’t and that’s fine. But I still need you like I need so very few,
Things in my life, and that’s alright. Because you are what you love, not who loves you. So if you’re an Angel among men, it just means I get to fly among the heavens too…

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